Save the face

What it could be? What could have changed a person so quickly?

We have not met for quite some time. He was one of my good friend. One of those who I have not heard him uttered any profanities since the day I knew him. Good conduct of himself.

Just, he replied me "FUCK YOU" on MSN while chatting. But he shocked me for more than a second. If anyone else were to say this, I'd just fuck him back and wouldn't give a damn. All, or rather, most guys do swear (I don't believe if anyone don't).

I don't feel anything, not upset at all. But just much disappointed about the changes a person could make.

For this, I wonder.
Is everyone acting nice at the very start? For some motive? Or is it that people do change for every moment in life?

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BIA (i hope!)

hey there,
i'm back here after for quite some time! not sure if i'd continue going on!

Been quite a happy man recently! Not sure if it's real happiness or subconsciously trying to be happy, either way, I'm still feeling good for now!

But recently, I feel left out. They don't feel so, but I do and I know it does. It just feels weird, as in an odd-one-out feeling. I don't really like it, and I'll probably try to avoid.

Anw, been super in love with this catchy song!

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half-way done

they said.
but am i?

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Stop crying your heart out

Uncle has really passed away.

I was in a middle of a badminton match, when I received the phone call from Mum, saying he slipped and fell and is hospitalized. For a moment, I was dumbfounded. My parents asked me not to visit him as they only allowed 3 visitors only. As I was walking back, I decided to go ahead to the hospital to visit him without my parents' knowledge. Me and Delia cousin called for him, but he didn't responded. All he did was lie there with closed eyes, breathing hard with slight movements from his legs. I felt the ache in there. Although we didn't like him then, but we grew up to realise his good intentions. In fact, we all loved him deep down.

Rest in peace. Life is really fragile.

One wave has hardly subsided, when another rises.
All this one go. Thanks, indeed.

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And so, Sally can wait

Things have been till now been very unlucky and bad for me.
Things are not going my way I want.

And I've been trying very hard - put on a facade. My friends are concerned bout me, I know.
When I'm all ready to escape, something happens that pulls me back, and I know it's not as easy as it seems.. I know I'm not in any way natural, but I'm trying my best not to. Trying..

And now, some friends wants to see here. Should I?

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Within ourselves

I've decided to make this place private.
At least, for awhile.
Some of them who are not supposed to know, knew about here.
I don't think I should show them my Achilles' heels.

Anyway, it'll be good.
To finally pen down the genuine feelings from inside, and not to contemplate whether am I supposed to say it out. And probably not care about anyone who asks about something I wrote.

Because I'm probably the only one who reads this.

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Bad month!

This month till now has been uber busy and suay for me! A bad start of 2010, I see. All things don't happen my way, and is really frustrating and pissing me off. And some friends go mocking and annoying me. Sometimes I really feel like flaring up, but always controlled myself.

Worst of all, I've just signed 2 weeks of "extras" for some lame reasons. Sigh. Tomorrow will be better. Argh, really a horrible month.

Anyway, just came home from brunch at Spruce with the girls. Initially thought was only with Tricia and Caleen, but turned out there were more people. Felt tired the entire day, dozed off a couple of times with them. I need rest and I'm like falling sick soon. And tomorrow shall probably be a cardio-workout day! Needa get back my 4s!

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