disappointing.

This week was shitty, and suay. Like the title says, i'm was really disappointed with myself.

With such important role given, I ended up cocking the whole thing up. The worse thing is that it even happened on the very first day.

Thinking back, simple tasks like those could be easily done by many others. Then, when i thought hard and cooled down, and finally led things back to the right track, that suay and serious incident had to happen! Worse of all, blisters with all sizes on my feet with extreme extreme pain had to come. I still had one that is blood-filled. My movements were so restricted. I'll never forget how he said "Fuck off", when i made that mistake.

Anyway, the 3 days there made me reflect on how well my leadership skills are. Organisation sucked, management sucked, planning sucked. Made me consider hard, my suitability. But still holding on to a bit of hope. All these together with that incident, i've fully regret for what i've done. I could, and should have done better. My expectations wasn't meant to be like that.

But of course, what's over is already over, i wouldn't brood over it. Fortunately, I did gain tiny weeny bit of pride back when we were back. As commonly mentioned, "Too shag, can't think", could somehow be used to describe my situation.

On a sidenote, I've gotten my company photos. At a blink of an eye, I have 2 more weeks left to POP. Time flies, isn't it?