i don't what to say...

Seriously i dont know how to explain how i feel right now. A couple of hours ago was me and Ariel's farewell dinner in office. Food was nice, the people there shared their life stories, how they joined the office and other stuffs.

Until a point where everyone had to give speech on how they feel about us leaving the company and stuffs. Never i knew (not sure for Ariel, but at least for me) that i could help the company in some ways or another. Suddenly i felt a minor importance from me, to the others.

And because me and my friends don't really praise each other, the praises/remarks i received today by my colleagues, one by one totally tooked me by surprise. I didn't expect i was like that to them, being so generous to their praises, even though i never thought i was that good as they thought. This greatly compensated to my low self-esteem and confidence. Seriously grateful and enjoyed the days i've worked there. The people here are generally nice.

Thanks to Joke, Melvin, Weimin, Rebecca, Yu Jin, Dianna, Dewi, Jo, Jane, Eugene and Allan.

I couldn't express my thanks to another person im grateful to is my partner/fling/friend/colleague/bestie, Ariel. Because we're too close, I've never really said "thank you" to her personally, or even praised her. But I hope you know how much i love you and dote on you at the end, even though i scold you and hate you at times. I have no wish to explain our simple yet complex relationship, which I've did umpteen times. (And yes, she has a boyfriend.)

From since i've known her all the way from Year 1, there were times (or rather, everytime) when i'm slow, stupid, dumb, failing to do this and that, all the way till now working with her, i guess she's the only person that always tolerate my shits (and i'll tolerate hers), and would be grateful to her about it. It must be such a tough time. Thanks Ah Bao! And remember, i don't actually mean what i've always said, like how fat you are, you being a bimbo and other mean stuffs. You do have your strengths and in fact, even much more than me.

When I first started SIP, i wished it would end quickly. When the time has come, i somehow hated the parting. Such irony. But then i wouldn't come to a stage like i would cry like how Ariel did, but just a little missing the guys there.

Sorry for the wordy post, as i just wanted to release something from within. Today just isn't quite me.